how did it get that way.

you have this way about your walk.
i'd follow you anywhere. down. down.
down. to the car. you're fucked up.
and brilliant. you look like my man.
or used to be.
why is my heart broke.
i've been out of love with you since
we stopped singing blues.
don't try too hard too love me.
SO WHY IS MY HEART BROKE.
you're brilliant.
i've kept my thoughts in the warmth
of my voice.
and that moment i opened my
mouth. fuck. it's like i said something wrong. like as if i said i love you.
which i don't.
anymore.
you didn't.
ever. no hesitation to tell me.
"just pullover"
i needed you then.
but we got nowhere that night.
just your underwear wrapped at your
ankles, and me somehow bent over.
but it was fast. like that summer
where you wanted to hook up, but
FUCK, i fucked up, trust me on
this one. i did. walking away.
feeling like home.
i have to get out of here.
out of this darkness.
i got to get in there.
somehow warm you up.
make you love me. again. with your
mouth open.
god says we are one.
either way we could make love.