Lights up.
Begin monologue--
"did I give you everything? didn't I do it right this time. you walked away from all the laughs. all the smiles. didn't look back at the idiot smiling back at you. hoping you turn around... wishing you would turn around.
they were looking for you today. something inside me told me not to listen. but your name is a plague... [pause]--
don't you think it hurts? you left without a goodbye. a kiss. and you still have my denim jacket. the one with the shiny patches. but I won't let you close enough to hurt me not tonight.
next time I'll be braver. when you call me Ill forget to answer. I'll forget you left strawberry ice cream, your favorite, in my freezer. and maybe next time I'll ask you how you felt. but not tonight.
I thought I told you it was for a night. knowing you're gonna hurt me I still found room in my heart to let you stay, but how could I say no with those eyes, and still you left in the middle of the night. without a goodbye.
light change--[with power in your voice]
you thought that i would crumble to my knees when you whispered in my ear.
look how you want me now. NOW THAT I DONT NEED YOU. i don't want it. no, I can't want it. not tonight. you said you'll be waiting. hoping I hold you closer just one more time.
didn't I do that already? Didn't I lose sleep. Didn't I look dumb chasing your car. waiting for you for hours. Wearing your sweater cause I missed the smell. you took it all. All the memories have been charring at the bottom of my heart. the ones covered in you. YOU TOOK IT ALL. I see you know and it hurts.
And you don't realize it do you...I'm empty... [pause]
Lights out.
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